imabitch

i would like to say a huge thank you
to all who have been cheering me up
and trying to put the smile back
onto my face. i appreciate your
concern, but still i'm not letting
anybody know what happen. hope
you'll can understand.

love you'll. cheryltan. jaime. mel.
calli. sarah. sheryltan. and all
who have been concerned especially
shakeit and sheila!


tried to get certain things off my
mind, which have disturbed and affected
me so much that i lose focus in
whatever i do. by doing so, i decided to
follow calli to town today. had a good relaxing
time i must say! thanks calli!

anyway!
this was what happened!
i walked past felicia chin outside hyatt.
told calli, and that mad girl ran after her
just to get her autograph on our school
diary. talked to her abit too, and man!
she is really pretty! asked us what shows
we watched and all. wrote notes in both
our diaries before signing off, and thanking
us for supporting her!

while walking out of pacific plaza, guess who
i spotted this time? taufik batisah! calli was walking
in front of him, and she didnt even notice him la!
pointing at him, i went, calli isnt that taufik?
okkay, that mad girl went up to him to ask for his
autograph on our diaries again.


ok! so all in all had a great time!
a total of two autographs on both
our diaries just in a day!
but the truth still remains.
no matter how hard i try to forget
about it, it will still come back to me!
its not like i wish it'll be gone in 3 seconds and,
1..... 2...... 3....... -poooof!-
it'll ALL be gone just like that.
HOW I WISH. oh well.
i have to face it!


my entire nightmare has started all over again.
no matter how fast i run or how far behind i leave it,
it always seems to catch up...to haunt me once more.
tearing open a wound that never fully healed.
the pain is searing through every inch of me and
i'm biting down on my lips to keep the tears from falling.

i seriously need a break.
RIGHT NOW.

posted by stacey @ Tuesday, February 01, 2005